I am as simple a human as God could create.
For reasons unknown, I dont have an understanding for things such as taste or preference. I fancy myself an expert problem solver. However, problems requiring a decision regarding preference are usually unsolvable in my world. Anybody who knows me as a human being and not just some imaginary figure created from tweets and instagrams would agree – I couldnt make a decision to save my life.
Now…if it came to saving yours – I’d like to think I’m logical enough to make the right decision. Just dont ask me what my favorite food, color, flavor, or t-shirt is.
I have yet to meet a food I dislike. Every color is beautiful. Every restaurant…alluring. Every person…interesting. I like everything…and it tends to complicate things severely.
CORRECTION: I am as simple AND as complex a human as God could create.
Being a human being makes one inherently complex. We reign supreme over all other species on this planet, thanks to our complexities. If we were as simple as all other beings – eat, sleep, fuck…repeat – we would simply be just that – all other beings.
But we’re not. We are 6.8 billion monkeys with high maintenance agendas. Though something as simple as a banana would make our close relative the Chimpanzee go ape-shit (pun intended) – it does nothing to us, aside from provide sustenance.
I sit here…trying to recreate a situation which makes human beings genuinely happy…
You can set as many goals as you’d like – and go forth to achieve them. Motivated by the potential prosperity of achieving those goals – we exhaust ourselves in the pursuit of the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. When we get there, however…we find ourselves unsatisfied rather than happy. So we go back to the drawing board, plot a new set of goals, and embark on the same mission. Our lives become one big hamster wheel – and like hamsters – we pump away at the wheel. However, unlike hamsters – we’re logical enough to realize that we are simply running in place. We are born, we develop, then we conform.
They say the definition of insanity is doing the same thing repeatedly and expecting a different result.
Though we as humans are inherently complex – the same cant be said for life. Dont get me wrong…life isnt easy. There is a certain ebb and flow when it comes to life. Like the ocean – it gives and it takes away.
Things could be going fantastic. The next thing you know – you’re waking up in a hospital, being fed the knowledge that your leg has been amputated.
You’re then fed the knowledge that you have thousands of people in your corner – pulling for you, praying for you, supporting you, donating money to help get you through it all.
6 months later, you notice your amputated leg itches more than usual. By chance, doctors find several strains of flesh and bone eating bacteria. The discovery will result in numerous surgeries – with the end result being unknown. Will we win the race? Can we kill the infection before it kills what remains of my leg? Or worse off…before it kills me?
Now, as aforementioned, I am a simple man. But dont mistake the verbiage – I am not a simpleton. Im quick to catch on to most things; especially patterns and trends.
I mentioned earlier that life is much like the ocean. Like life, the ocean is as majestic as it is mysterious. It has been said that we know more about our solar system than we do about our own ocean. Its various inhabitants possess a biological structure completely different from our own; they are alien to any being that inhabits the Earth. Forget about finding extra terrestrial life in the universe – one need only take a trip to the beach to experience the real life science fiction that exists within our oceans.
No matter how sophisticated our technology gets, no matter how intelligent we get as a race – we will never fully understand the ocean. It is a world within our own. It is as obscure and intricate as anything we will ever encounter. The same can be said for life.
As complex as the ever incomprehensible ocean may be – superficially – it is rather simple. So simple, in fact, we can predict its every motion. We can analyze and evaluate the trends of different currents and tides all over the world, but once again, one need only take a trip to the beach. The waves crash….and recede. The tide ebbs…and it flows. The ocean gives to the earth – then it takes away.
Deep down, under the surface….life is absolutely inconceivable. We will never understand where we come from, why we are here, nor where we are going. But superficially, like the ocean – life is rather simple and predictable. Bad times come crashing…and they recede. The good times ebb…and then they flow. Life gives to mankind – then it takes away.
…hopefully you are beginning to see the trend.
Life can be difficult – trust me – I could tell you all about it. But when you keep things simple and true to nature – one can easily follow the pattern. Adversity strikes…and it sucks. We have no control of when it comes or when it goes – however, we have control over how we react to it. With the knowledge that the night is darkest before the dawn – that the receding tide is assuredly followed by a flow of good things to come – adversity can simply be perceived as a fantastic opportunity.
An opportunity to grow. An opportunity to learn. An opportunity to find out what you are really made of. Because lets face it…people can talk the talk all they’d like. But when the shit hits the fan…when all the talking has faded to silence – we discover who actually walks the walk.
Adversity is the ultimate equalizer. Through it…we get an honest, unfiltered view of ones character.
This enlightenment is one I find ultimate solace in. It is what keeps me smiling in the darkness. What keeps me laughing in the funeral setting that resembles my life at times. I know…no matter how bad it gets – I will weather the storm. No matter how violent the storm – I will laugh at the waves as they crash on me.
Many envision the future as the life luxurious. Now, the luxury may vary depending on the individual. Perhaps your luxury is love, hers is money, and his is fame. Regardless – we look to the future with the utmost optimism.
I am no exception. I know I will walk again one day; I know I will live the life luxurious.
Life is temporary. It doesnt last very long. No matter how good or bad your life might be in current affairs – rest assured – good times, as well as bad, are only temporary.
Life is a bi-polar psychopath. A beautiful…bi-polar psychopath.